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Saturday, February 04, 2006 |
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| HUGE Dilemma! |
Ok well last nite we went to verandah bar cuz i was talkin to tony abt organising a nite out wit jen (actually, shud i be revealing this? oops..too late! hehe) newayz so he was gona get us in for free..but of course, they neva let anyone in until AFTER the time u can get in free. So it was me, amy.c, amy.j, amy.s, maria, tony, johnson and his frend jason. Jen neva ended up comin cuz of personal reasons (i hope ur ok hun!). The music wasnt great to begin with..but then wen we went out to dance, they played sum pretty hot songs. Later on, me, amy.c and amy.s went exploring, found another room and they had sum pretty gud music ova there too. OMG wen we were in that room...i heard screaming so i looked ova and it seemed like someone dropped a glass of alco on the ground. But then wen i looked closer, i realised it was vomit! it was so gross cuz da room eventually had this nasty stench and i fink poor maria got sum on her leg..i fink i wudve vomited too if i were her.
So we went bak to the other room again to get away. I forget if this was b4 or after but i saw wendy..man shes a club-a-holic! i was pretty much expecting to see her there. She even sed creep was there and one time he came ova to where wendy and i were and shes full like "intro-ing" us...like as if he didnt kno who i was! haha..i fink he was half drunk too, he serz seemed out of it. Neway, i left wendy and was sitting in the booth with the others and then i see peter walk passed so i go to him 'hey r u peter?' i duno if he remembered who i was at first but then i was like..'did u go to marcs funeral?' it was weird cuz it seemed like he ignored me at first cuz he didnt really say much and jst walked off..i fink he was beckoning for me to follow him but u kno me..dumb bitch..didnt get it. So he full comes bak afta a while and drags me with him. We went and found a spot and talked abt marc for a while, and how himself and the chinese group dont really like talkin abt marc..i can def understand, its a sensitive issue. But yeh, we swapped numbers and hopefully i can catch up with the chinese crew.
NEWAYZ...the point of this entry was to talk abt my HUGE dilemma! haha...ok lemme pose a question: what do u do wen u fink u hav feelings for a frend? ok, well under "normal" circumstances, its prob not that big a deal..if nething, most ppl end up liking frends rite? but my major issue here...and i know helen, ur gona full roll ur eyes at me...but i SERZ have bad luck with guys born in 1985 (which is the year this frend was born in). I know 2 ppl cannot equate as "proof" but i jst cant help but feel like if i go for a 1985-er again, it will jst end up like "the others". Cuz to be honest, i dont want that to happen cuz i dont wana lose him as a frend. So do i take that risk? I know u fink im a whack-job but i serz cudnt sleep last nite cuz i kept finkin abt it...gosh man i sure hope he doesnt read this! haha..ah well, i cud kno a few 1985-ers...all my friggin guy frends are!! geez..cept mayb tony..lol, so u kno its not u then ay tony! sorry to disappoint u! hehe...serz, most of my guy frends r younger than me ~ am i destined to be with a younger guy???
So wat shud i do?!?!??!?!!? i hate how my feelings jst abrupt from nowhere! how the hell do i jst suddenly feel like this? i wish i cud say more but jst in case he reads this..haha..i dont fink i shud. So i guess if u wana kno more, ur gona hafta ask me..ive got so much more goss than this but it serz is too risky to publish. But u kno wat? Why am i even stressing myself out here?! He prob doesnt even feel the same way abt me anyway so there we go, prob solved! =P
Well other than this pile of crap i jst dumped on myself..haha..last nite was pretty gud, altho i STILL like skygarden the best! still hafta check out space and gas tho...
.::.PeAcE.::.
((song of the moment: NELLY f/ KELLY ROWLAND - Dilemma))
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| $éÑøЯiŦå Confessed @ 1:54 pm |
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I think Amy has a good point. Although, there are always things that you can't explain by "reason". And your gut instinct isn't always "reasonable".
Jess, your decision will ultimately depend on what you value more. But don't base your decision solely on his birthday - there's more to a person than that.
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I think Amy has a good point. Although, there are always things that you can't explain by "reason". And your gut instinct isn't always "reasonable".
Jess, your decision will ultimately depend on what you value more. But don't base your decision solely on his birthday - there's more to a person than that.