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Monday, October 10, 2005 |
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| Confused >.<" |
First of all, i pose a question to u Helen. That day that before i confessed my feelings for guy B, u were full teasing me about being in love and i asked u how i could be in love with sum1 i dont even talk to and u sed sumfing about loving him from afar. Then in my last blog i was saying that i may hav been "in love" with him and u full repeat my words that u cant really love sum1 u dont talk to >.<" Man r u tryna confuse the hell outta me??
Secondly, ive been going thru my weird phases again. Like afta sat at work, i full had that talk with amy.j that i mentioned rite and i was jst asking her how much of a role looks play in terms of liking sum1. Then i was jst saying that cuz he cut his hair, he didnt look as "cute". Man i serz fink he shud try to gel his hair cuz i bet he wud look so cute with his earrings as well. Like man id drool i tell ya. Gosh why am i admitting this?! =P But serz, i seem to always hav this thing with guys with gelled hair and earrings...im like fanning myself here as im typing this! Neway my point was that i dont know if i shud b liking sum1 for their looks. I know its shallow and everything but sumtimes living in this society u are somewhat pressured into choosing gud-looking ppl and if u go out with sum1 who isnt then ur frends or other ppl wud b like "wtf was she thinking?!" I guess in the end if u have that special connection with that person then the looks dept will be overrided cuz superficical r'ships dont last rite?
Then i was talking to Leonie about guys cuz she recently got a bf and she was saying how wen ur totally not consciously looking then u always wind up wit one and how its weird but thats always the way it ends up. So then i was thinking about getting ova this whole guy B thing cuz i was getting a lil annoyed neway. Like i was so frustrated over the fact that im the one who ALWAYS has to start shit and push things along to get a guy and im jst so sick of it. How come no guy can do the chasing? Man im tellin u, i better not hav been born to hav to do all the chasing cuz im so ova it! But then i know i wont be able to get ova him. Not in this lifetime. Not with those eyes of his. Im doomed. Unless sum1 gauges his eyes out, im pretty positive that every time we lock eyes, i'll jst succumb to my feelings...
*sigh* imagine if his staring neva meant nething in the first place. I would have pretty much wasted all my energy for nfn. And u kno wat else? How many friggin natural disasters hav their been lately?? Man if it is a sign that the world is ending and we all get one last wish, i would REALLY want to experience what its like to be chased by a guy in the way its dun in the movies and how it feels to not only be in love but how it feels to be loved. I dont want to leave this world without having experienced that.
.::.PeAcE.::.
((song of the moment: MARCOS HERNANDEZ - If You Were Mine))
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